mm.. havent been on in about 4 or more days. wheee!~ okay.
uhh..
friday.. i intended to borrow some books at the library. i borrowed 3 drawing books (y) I didnt go at second break cause i forgot so i went, quickly after school when we sneaked out of maths. didnt really matter. right, so i walked home.. the school was like, so emptyy. after only a few minutes :/ like all deserted. so i started walking home and there were these kids walking home infront of me. and there was this group of kids in this school walking that way (it was a four-way road.. so i was at the south, kids - north, and the boys were west) and i crossed the road and they start whistling or whatever, so i just ignored them cause they're stupid == went up, (those kids infront walk really slow) and one of the primary school kids were cussing at them, saying they were d'faces or w/e, they were like a gang or something.
then the girl goes to me: "um, you better quickly run home cause those boys are whistling at you"
so i got a bit freaked out :/ they were all like, grade 8 kids or whatever, the boys in some gang. i walked quicker and quickly went home, cause it was just there. i dunno if they were round the corner or w/e but whatever. so it was all weird but i'm over that now. dumb. i had the books in my hand.

erm, okay.
yesterday at school.
twas okay.
Apc - site evaluation (three of them, only got up to two)
graphics - had a bus driver as our substitute.

today at school:
graphics - didn't do much but doodle all over a piece of paper with laura, thomas, delisha & james. erm.. had that substitute again.
sose - test. got 20 out of 21. damnit. i forgot to check over and got 'abbott' wrong. i missed out the extra t. but i got all the definitions correct. we're doing the middle ages (y) ^-^`

another short & quickly blog post <.< i only decide to start blogging now, at the latest. 10:19 PM. oh lovely. okay.

fridayy, early mornings, woke up at 3am.. left at 4 or somethinggg.. driving to canberra. stayed at some motel place which is about 10 minutes far from the city (or at least where everythings taking place). erm.. watched about 2/3 of princess diaries 2 in the car.. batteries kept getting low and the thing they were testing didnt work. watched the rest at the motel.
slept. .. not very well.. bed was too soft. made my back feel stupid in the morning. the room was two rooms. altogether 7 beds. i didnt like a lot of the beds there.. (not only picky but.. yucky) erm, two tvs, 1 bathroom.

saturday. early mornings. outside the embassy for righteous thoughts. um, and after, something. i dont know whether it was saturday or sunday we went around a mall for shopping a bit, cause we needed a couple of things that werent enough brought of. that night we watched lemony snickets series of unfortunate events. yay. thats a good movie. slept stupidly.

uhh.. sunday was the conference day.
first we went to fa zhen nien outside the embassy. umm.. and after that drove to the conference place. wasnt as fancy, but did do. sat. and sat. and listened. and sat. ok. break. finally! bum getting sore.. and hungry. went for lunch. erm.. we found hungry jacks. parked there. found mcdonalds. better. was going to walk but drove there instead. found kfc. hooray! even better. parked and ate at kfc.

then a few more sharings. there were lots. umm.. i came back from outside a missed a bit. i was getting lonely.. so i had to go back in and.. sit. they had like, four or something epoch times people doing their sharings and they pushed aside practically all (the rest of) the queenslanders so they didnt do them cause near the end.. people leaving a bit. plus, the epoch times ones were super long. >.< super duperly bum soreness. and tiredness.

urg. near the end.. pretty much went for toilet and refreshed around outside where there was fresh(er) air to breathe. stuffiness & bum soreness inside. meh. umm.. at the end (as they totally crossed out all the names of the qlder people who were mentioned after the lunch break but didnt even get to, even at the end. not at all) they had this choir singing. and lots of people leaving. "people leaving 5 minutes early" cause heaps of people had to leave to catch their planes and stuff. umm. didnt watch all of the choir. uhh.

after that, we had to drive home. yes, indeed. that long car trip meets the family again. erm. so we watched the rest of the rented movies. I was supposed to watch finding neverland with my mum but she was sitting at the front and my brother insisted watching that at that time.. so yeah. he found it a little boring but said it was good when i asked him and when my dad asked him how he thought of it. i guess its alright. how he wrote peter pan and stuff and the story thingy. nearing the end, finally the spongebob movie. i got bored watching it <.< not my type. its way childish. and dumb. i didnt even get a good laugh out of it (as in, not funny =<). darnit. eh, anyway.

oh yeah, we stayed in syd and drove more on monday and watched those movies that night.

my brother has sisterhood of the travelling pants as well. i'll watch that one day. one day. yeah. i gotta go now. school on monday (missed it) so on tuesday. today had school. mm, w/e.

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ehk. I think i'm a pretty useless person when it comes to helping. I mean, I wanna help. I really do. I just suck at it, straight forward. I tried to help someone or I dunno. I think all I did was say a bunch of useless things they needed not hear. darn it me.

today we're packing for tomorrow. early mornings and long car drives, to canberra. err.. Falun Dafa Experience sharing. and we're coming back on monday night. Tonight i'm supposed to have piano lessons but my mum cancelled this week cause she says I need to have an early nights sleep, for we gotta be getting up really early tomorrow morning. yeah, w/e. I'll probably be sleeping a lot in the car.. as I usually do. But this time we have more new dvds to watch (Like, only four though to sustain the two long trips) and the laptop. Laptop has encarta i can explore, and erm. I think we can be able to use the internet. Great. I'd like to talk to somebody when i'm on that long trip cause you do get pretty lonely sitting in the car with no conversation (Then again, i rarely get involved in any good conversations when i'm at home anyway), and it'll be good if I'd have someone to talk to or something. Doubt it'll happen cause hardly anyone talks to me all the time. umm.. I can think of two. or three. that's about it. Unless I start one, though. that'll mess up bgah.

gaha. nightwish<333333333333333 a thousand.
Very good writing, & music. haha. im speeding up this post *tv*
Woke up to the mind of the phantom of the opera. <333
and then icouldnt go back to sleep cause
1. Once i wake up, it's usually not that easy to go back to sleep
2. darn neighbours got out to paint or whatever. they happen to be french.

and w/e.
mum took me out to rent some videos (tuesdays, $1 each) after meditation.
i picked out six new releases (7 nights) but you're only aloud four, so i gave down thisss.. movie called de lo.. or w/e dont rememberthename andd The Phantom of the Opera (L))))) Next time, deary,, next time. I got Princess diaries 2, Finding Neverland (L))), spongebob squarepants movie andd ermm.... gahwhatwasit >.< lemony snickets series of unfortunate events. (y)

gahagagw tv is probably back from ads <.<
yeah, the simpsons (y) And then mtv awards.
I was quite devastated when green day won the best rock video.. not that I don't like them, I love the song and them. I just honestly, honestly.. <word here> that Mcr - Helena was the best video. gahgalg. devastated, i say. Better was when green day won the other thing though. but yeah. anywayyys.

ghagagbye~~~~

oh erm, my brothers gone and is not gonna be home for like, two or three days or w/e, staying at hilton for this conference for his work thing or w/e.
gagaga.

anywayyys.
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Yesterday we drove to annie's & josh & we went with them in their car, drove about one and a half hour (or something) to sunshine coast for Heidi's funeral.
We got there and they had this lovely cards with a nice picture of her on the front and it was pink, her favourite colour. inside was a tribute, written by her little brother and some photos & memories of her. At the back of the card was a poem that she wrote before she passed. she's a good writer.

the casket/coffin thing was out, and flowers all around. it looked really small from an angle, but then we moved more to mid and it was about right. i learnt that: dead people shrink after.. you know. kay.
We waited, and then it started. and her brother's good with speaking. baha, and getting tired of standing so long but it's all good.
There were multiple speeches and stuff and some singing and music. In the end they played her favourite song, which was also at their anniversary. Brian Adams. i keep forgetting the title. but it's that nice, common one. and the loved ones all threw down their roses as the casket was being lowered. Her kids are brave. they must have cried it all before, and all the other kids there cried but they didn't. talhia's so cute (can'tspellthename). i managed to not cry. good on ye, linda. It was sad though, but he said it was more of a celebration of her life. she was an inspiration and touched on many. she's lead a good life and she's in a much better place than us now.

Two funerals in one day. of course, we had to leave after. they had this party kinda thing afterwards. but we had to go back to john lee's mums funeral.

alll the way back. gee, long car drives.
the next funeral was different. at this funeral chapel thing.
so, we went in.. and erm.. the coffin lid was open :x So erm. we saw a real live dead person for the firs ttime.
josh is like.. ".. scary! never ever seen a realdsf..." blahblah. :P it goes on but i dont wanna repeat.

erhm, so yeah. this one was being cremated. they had this card, too. of a photo of her earlier days in this photo shoot looking all nice and maked up and stuff.

umm.. yeah.
That night (last night) i strugged to sleep >.< i was like, ehhhkkkkk. dont dream about funerals and stuff, now. baha. whats with a black coffin coming to my head all the time. it was white! not bla.. .. nvm == The darn wind was sooo loud. it kept on knocking the blinds and making much of a huffle noise, keeping me awake. (on the far side) so i realised the window was open -.- my mum came in and closed it. yes, i was awake. i kinda dreamt, but didnt actually sleep. so erm.. the only sleep i got was after like, i dunno. few hours. baha. this morning - so tired.

the night before, i had trouble sleeping as well. ehkkkkk. cause i was like, "two funerals tomorrow, better get some sleep before then" erm. yeah.. i dreamt (some weird dream) but i didnt actually fall asleep >:/ if you get me. like, i was awake at the same time but just had visionaries in my mind too, like dreams. erm... and then it was like, past five, probably 6 or something and the sun started to come up and the room was starting to brighten. the night didnt really seem that long though. it was just all so, so confusing whether or not i was actualyl sleeping or not. erm.. so after about 6 or something when light was starting to come through, i fell asleep. and woke at like, eight *shrug*

today. got up early, to go to toowoomba. I was awoken by my mum. i forgot we had that. i was just like, "what?? why do i have to get up so early for. what do we have today.." then she reminded me. cause, that was that night the stupid death dream was getting irritating -.- darn that. its all good now though, hopefully. ummm... yeah... that was last night i dreamt that. so. or wa.. nvm. And how the wind was really strong and the noise kept me from sleeping and stuff.

we went there and it was sooooooooooooo, extremely windy, and cold. ermm.. felicia was there, had been there for two hours or something. and people were decorating the float (flower festival).
so we sat.. cold, and the wind was so strong. we had our head down, gunched up. and then sylvia came and sat with us. she looks warm :P
ermm.. so we had some walks around.. and then we stayed in my car and i ate some and they had some too (mum brought fried rice or w/e for lunch things) and we played words starting with letters game and.. other word games and such.

the parade, at the time was moved from erm, some time to 2. and in the end we wwere out of the car and walking around and sylvia had some issues so we helped her with walking around and the toilets were those mobile ones and theyy are so smelly and dirty >.< and ew, after a while... we came back to that place and we decided with her to just change quickly anyway. Then they announced that the parade was cancelled. (extremely strong & high winds were too dangerous, things might fall and stuff).

they still had the floats and stuff though. and we handed out lotuses to random females and kids and such. ermm.. and the walking people had to be on the sidepath. and there were these ugly, retarded clowns. but they were handing out pot plants. thats cool. -wants some pot plants-

uhm. they took the short cut way. we got thereee. and we could see those rides and stuff at the fair thing. what we mainly did was walk around, looking for people. baha. sylvia's parents also brought fried rice too. yes. fried rice is indeed handy for lunches going out and stuff andblahw/e. um. stayed in her car for a while she ate. it was comfortable (me, cramping into the baby seat. it's indeed comfortable cause i feel so much taller and its fun and comfortable xD)

umm.. and blahblah stuff. innn the enddd erm, we waited in my car. and my dad told us to stay there. felicia's mum and sister came and they left. baha. sophie (felicia's sister) really has guts to ask strangers to get them to buy her food and lollies and stuff and go on rides. o.o the rides there were dumb though. i dunno. like, 5 or 6 per person and euck. yuck rides. baha :P

umm... waited. eated.. (oranges, mainly. sylvia had the banana) um. waited in the car. and then she went, with her mum calling her. and then it was time to go.

everytime we're at the flower show there, we always look at those flower/garden displays that people have put effort into the competition in their houses & gardens and stuff. its cool. and pretty. but this time we didnt go, cause we didnt bother getting the handout and the addresses, it was way too cold and windy and by the time we'd get home it would be quite late. and they figured it'd be the same as last year and every previous, eh. *shrug*

mmk.
We had a storm last night. and Yay! Minnie got her internet back. but being on so late isn't healthy. we talked about the new release 8 and how incredibly sucky and unfair it is. i'm glad theres someone that agrees with me and doesn't just laugh when im ranting on and complaining. (y) we decided to write a report/article/rant on this. started yesterday and i didnt get to finish it and email it to her after she went off because of the storm coming. so, today i finished it. and it is sent. wala. We just have to hope for the best (y) ayaya.

okay. my brother installed the encarta and stuff on the laptop. we can bring it tomorrow and stuff. hooray. Long car rides shouldn't be too dull and boring either. they can be fun with a laptop xD baha. and hes worked on the internet thing with it, too. encarta's quite fun.. exploring.. dunno. still good.

okay. time for me to get off.
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yeah, Another lazy day today.. not as bad as yesterday and two days ago, but meh, oh well.
Must watch Tabaluga in the mornings xD haha (y)

Tomorrow we're going to two funerals. one's in the morning or somethinggg and I think the other is in the afternoon or something, in sunshine coast. and we've all put in money for this big flower thingy. For sorrow, i'd usually wear white <.< it reflects light and pierces my eyes, rofl. but i will go by the western moral and wear black. that is, if i have any. sure should.

erm. i practiced some piano with my mum helping me and forcing me and not letting me leave. At the same time, stashing the house for food <.< we have hardly anything decent to eat.. so i had two breads with pork floss in the end, after some chocolate dairy dessert & strawberries and a bit o' jelly.

Piano lesson was okay. i'm constantly reminded of how much I need to practice. she told me that the exams in late november or december. december? odarn. kay. I thought it was october to november but it's not gonna be in october. I keep thinking to myself that i have enough and can get through it all in time so maybe that's why i've been laid back and just.. dunno.. If the thing is in december then i have that long to wait till I get my wanted things (ie, tablet. and *hopefully* psp, rofl. probably wont get it though <-<), next year.. buttttt 'tisss all good. o.o yeah..

my day wasn't as bad and lazy as before for some reasons and stuff on my mind. erm.
1. I recieved an email from someone special that made me smile. And I feel glad now.
2. I did some piano practice. (as in, i actually *practiced")

umm. couldnt think of a title again. everytime i come to this part, i've run out of words for this..

kay, right.
yesterdayy. it was an okay day, right. erm. felicia and sylvia came to mh. and so did andrew. so they all choose to come on this particular day out of the rest :P well, anyway. felicia's going to canberra again. yes, felicia. whatever, waste of money going and coming back all the time :P but w/e. 'sall good. i'm going to canberra for the experience sharing in the last week of school holidays. i dunno how long but we're driving there. urg, long car drives x.<''

the dancing class last night, was okay. learnt some new one where erm. it's.. i dunno. lots of twisting. and all that squatting and such had made my legs sore now <.< but i guess its not bad. just.. whatever.
     um. i didnt wanna go out today but i was forced. they promised me only one place and they make up some excuse and lie. -.- erg, how do you trust parents.
i wont go into detail. anyways. and then they lose where they parked the car. but its all good. just all the walking. blah,whatever.

lunch soon. there has been grieve today. but im not gonna talk about it.
baha, i ate so much yesterday. allll full up. about 2 thirds of a whole plate of fried kw.. w/e noodles and some rice & chicken. and a whole lotta snacks after. weighed again at the end of the day and i was still 40kg. alrightee.
lunchh now.
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I ended up going to school. i told kayla I wasn't sure so then she really wanted me to go and she's like: "If i come would you come?" so i'd think about it then she rang laura and they're both coming so I dunno, I went anyways. It was alright, quite fun in a way. Felt like "last-day-of-school junkies" xD :P baha. umm.

Hpe - free time (some handball and stuff)
Sose - free time.. if you finished & handed in your assignments (i worked on my english)
first break was okay. Shannan came to school in her skates and had them in her bag (pretty heavy :o) and erm, haha, she's so pro. she offered anyone for a go and i had a go. it's fun xD but i'm not that good with it but still. fun :P and then harley wanted a go cause he's just so pro. haha.

umm.., Science. We were inthe library and kinda were with the year 8 hpe class or something. they put on this boring video on (The rookie) and I played uno with erm, jarrod, daniel, james, samuel and ian i think. h2o cards eh, they were getting all greasy and yuck and stuff and sam only bought them yesterday (15 bucks o.o).

uh. Second break. the tuckshop was supposed to be closed but they opened it and erm.. i wanted ice-cream but they ran all out :(

ermm.. Lastly, we had maths. we went into beatties class and they put on a dvd. erm.. haha, laura brought all these scary movies. And they put on the rest of darkness falls (tooth fairy O.O; don't remind me please) and umm. kayla and i went all the way at the back and were about to have a conversation and then the guys saved us with uno, rofl. but they were all wet cause they washed them (will spilt lemonade all over them) and the cards were all stuck together so we had to dry them individually. kayla won, i came second. and then whatever :P

so kayla and i went outside and took their handball to play with it and then they came out and ruined our game :( and rooofl, shannan sticks her head out the window (cause kayla's and i are sitting there with upset faces of ruin) and goes erm, i forgot. yeah. "Meaniiiiiiieeeees." "Meeeeeeeanieeees. you ruined their game :( And made them all sad :( meeeeeeeeeeeeeanieees" and lmaooo, jarrod was about to close the window on her so they couldn't hear her (as a joke) rofl. shannan's funny :P Comes outta nowhere.

i'm not sure if i'd be going tomorrow. I might. hardly anyone is though.. reah isn't, kayla and laura aren't.. kayla and laura are gonna get in their uniforms and come to school at second break to visit or something, dunno. meet at the hills, right. I think I should go anyway.. I need help on the science assignment and .. dunno..

Form this morning first up. i didnt come as late, but still late :P but not that late. umm.. so erm, harley was trying to (pretend) fight with me, and since he's a little midget i was holding his head and suspending him so it was like his arms couldn't reach me but, haha. it's funny. and then he pretends he's crying cause he got beaten by a girl and runs out of the class and almost trips over a bush. and then the bell rings. We have maths first up.

it was alright. he made us do some sheets.
"Choose: The baby one or the our level one"
everybody chooses the baby one
"You have to the grade 9 level one."
so baby one isn't an option, rofl. stoopeed.

and after we've done that he brought all these games and stuff for us to play like connecta four and cards and stuff. we all wanted to play monopoly but couldn't cause there wasn't money in there <.< wayta ruin the game. so ermmm.. we played uno, it was fun. and after that we played some connect a four. i versed sir in it and we ran out of token thingies and if we had some left i would have went there and he would have went there and i would have went there and won xD :P noones beaten him so far, and then i broke it. yay. and then harley was supposed to verse the winner or something but no time left. We had umm.. hpe next.

volleyball's fun in hpe. i dunno, in a way. but then it's annoying when people kick the ball to get it to the other side for the other team to serve and it goes far all the wayto the other wall and it takes a while and stuff so that's annoying and time wasteful but other than that and whatever, whatever.