baha, i sux at titles when i try to think of them.
Anyways.

this morning there was a kitten in our yard/carplace thing. after / during breakfast and stuff i went outside to have a look, could hear it all day. it was so CUUUUUUTEEE!  >w <
    hehe. a little black kitten with grey-blue eyes. erm, about approximately (or less than) 30cm long? hehe.

wasnt aloud to keep it  :'(

<_<  Anyways. i petted itt and then we got some milk for it. it likes small, dark spaces like under the wooden plank our doormat is on and under the car, near the exhaust and perching on the car wheels. erm, and in the bush when it runs away.
    it was still there in the afternoon and it wouldn't leave  o_o
Kayla told me how bad strays are, like they could have a disease or bad behaviour and stuff. so that was the only thing kept in mind to ignoring it.
so erm they decided to take it to this pound place.   :(
it was erm. interesting? watching dad try to catch the little kitten, though.  DAHHH WIth a broomstick thing?  anyways he finally got it and put it in a box. I was worried it might die hwen he full closed the box  :l  so he got a screwdriver and stabbed holes in it.

bye bye kittieee.


Anyways. On sunday i think there was this parade in the Gc?  Christmas parade and we went there after the morning to attend. I decided not to follow the walking-doing excercise people and walked with grandma (not my grandma, someone elses grandma) and 2 little kiddies  (they're sisters with mushroom hairdoos), and they were handing out paper lotus flowers. okay, so the parade started and they started handing it out and it was like, every single kid on the parade  o_o
soon they were about 2 floats behind and i didn't know whether i should stick with them and get lost away from our float or try and catch up and leave them. I was kind of in the middle, this huge gap between ours and the next one,   =(  walking alone aboutt 6 feet between 2 floats. and grandma and 2 kids were way behind.
    Luckily, though they finished and caught back up and we had to try and walk fast to catch up.  but all the flowers were gone already  o_o;  nothing to hand out.  dah silly.
erm anyways, quite embarassing. one guy in the crowd even wentt "they went that way!"   <.< dufus.

Oookay.

mm, byeeeee.
(its holidays atm. 2 monthssss!)
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aie.
i wish i could have thought how to write my history assignment a few days ago. tonight is the last time i'll have before handing in this long oral draft tomorrow. gosh, history sucks for me :(
i seriously want to sleep. i realised i've probably developed these signs from lack of sleep, everyone else obviously has a better sleeping pattern than me, and better organisational skillssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
ssssssssssssssssssssso. here goes.
we have about 7 paragraphs to do for our history oral draft. i didn't actually start a paragraph until today in history class because i was just lazily bludging the last week/s.. i just almost finished 1 paragraph.

 and now i'm screwed.
i pledge a vow:
"I will learn from my mistake and have learnt my lesson after tonight".

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i planned about 7 important things on a list and ...  well, things didnt go too well but thats no surprise.
parents offered to go to the mall for a little wonder around or shopping. i couldn't resist because these days i've been having some sort of urge to get out. and probably buy things. I did do the first thing on my list though, which was practice a bit in piano for the morning, then i watched earl that i recorded from thursday, then went out. ended up coming back at about 4 or something. heh, theres that time gone for making up work...

my list of important things i had to do today (that i didn't do for the most part) was-
- piano, part of some in the morning
- biology assignment [(impossible) aim - at least 1/5 done (!)]
- history assignment - due friday, aim was at least 2/3 done or 2-3 paras.
- Think for english assignment, which is due on MONDAY.  [D':]
- PE assignment, due week 7
- Maths story & maths revision
- study fa.

[last two - swap round..]

so there it is. i've got an assignment for just about every subject I have. and it's all piling up ontop of each other now. god, i'm lazy.

i had a bit of a convo (just a bit) with bj last night, because it seemed like an okay time for one of those "haven't spoken in ages" type ones. it wasn't much, though, and if any convo it's always me trying to start the convo by asking every question and bringing up every topic starter- there aren't much, though. and he always says the same thing, which by now i'm starting to see it like water and its starting to sound a bit fake. a bit like a metal robot. metal is shiny, you know? like water.

well, kayla grabbed a bitta help outta me from a question. its like she just always asks for favours and never returns anything - not even a thank you. well I never!  just kidding. it's tiring when you feel used like that and can't help doing the opposite of what you always do.

i guess my bishing is done for this evening. 3 things. 3 and a half if you count my ever-returning complains on how lazy I am, myself.

gosh I must get something started and done!

but..
i feel like saying a bit more.
like our english & history teacher (the other one changed, and this one came back from her paternal leave, I think that's what it's called..), who hands us an assignment or a task and doesn't say anything more about it. she never tells us when it's due until the end (well, for english though). and for history well, we only get one week to do it. she made it easy and she made it hard at the same time. she put all the steps on 2 sheets of paper and put some lines on it like we're supposed to follow this so easily. but it has also put some uneasy problems for the mind. like she only left 3 lines on the bibliography (under a pre-written list that you tick off individually if you use one), and... does she really really want every assignment to be the same?? and i'm a person that by nature and habit always strives for difference. its weird. i dont know if i'm going to get mediocre marks from following it or am I gonna get an A or something and feel generic. i left the first day blank. did nothing at all because... i just couldn't think. and then it wasn't til after class that i realised what i should have done in all that time. ah, silly me.

i met somebody new about 2 weeks ago? she has the same name as me. and she is in yr 12. it was cool to meet her, though. she just came in art and started talking and shes real friendly. but i'm not sure if i'll see her often because she's one of those party-more, school-less kinda people. but a nice person overall.

hmm alright. no more lagging behind of time.
(i really hope though)

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"In memory of those who died on the tiananmen massacre"

I saw that on the window of a store.  =o



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hmm, okay so the textbook lady said that if i'm not using the graphics calculator then i should return it back and i'll get the deposit back too, yesterday. so i got a bit earlier today in the morning and she wasn't darn there. i coudn't walk because i was wearing my (sort of not really) newish shoes.. darn. theyre too big even though they're size 6 and i'm a 7. maybee british sizes or something, hah :']
hmm. she wasn't there at first break either so i had to hold it all day (it wouldn't fit in my bag because i was also carrying the maths textbook). then after i ate we left down to play and stuff. the bell rang and it was when i was thinking about how jarrod told samuel not to throw his bag, there might be a graphics calculator in there i thought...
"where the hell is mine?" [that ran out of batteries anyway.. but thats besides the point]

so before form i ran and ran (running this time seemed a lot harder because of those shoes) to maybe the racks at science block but they weren't there. arggghhh! <- expressivo, ha.
after form and i told jarrod and stuff, ran into delisha and then asked tiff & jc but they hadn't seen my hold if after eating and walking down. so i was stressing soooooooo much. baha, i almost cried because i would so darn hate to lose that thing. then we'd have to pay about $120 or something...  >_<;  and mum was telling me that i'd get the extra uniform with the deposit (not to sound pov or anything, rofl god).

so i was checking the stairs  butt nopee.  then sir (maths teacher) came down and asked me "linda where is your graphics calculator?"
erm.  "... i dont know."
and he was holding it (covered by a piece of paper)
O_O;;;;
oh gosh. i was so relieved. but i didnt react much because erm. i'm a bit of a dope with no emotional value that can be seen. but in my brain i felt really glad. it's the kind of glad you take for granted and pass by feeling i guess.  kind of felt like.. thank you lots, save me 120bux..
he told me that a boy found it and gave it to him. he wasn't a good boy actually, but.. good because he returned it. and sir instantly knew that it was likely to be mine becauuuseee.. earlier in maths class i showed him that i was going to return it and asked if there was anything we were going to learn about that really required a calc.

Actually, I feel like that was all planned out. but damn, was I worried when i thought i had lost it. really worried and scared.

anywayyyssseee. thats my story today.
I haven't blogged in so long. i guess i haven't felt like it. i wanted to break free from the computer for a while and got lazy to blog. but oh well.

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nope.



there are so many things i have to say and let out. much poison lockedd inside of me. but i dont think i'll be able to blog so much anymore. so much timee and effffort. erm. yeah.
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I got the details to my structured work placement, the place i'll be for about um. 2 or 3 weeks. Rung up, blablah. When we went there it seemed like a pretty nice place. I won't mention the name of the company cause blah. too long :P
erm. the employer/head person lady seemed pretty nice. She was pretty concerned with how.. erm, well. The company does those big billboard advertisements and on trucks, and kind of like graphic designers/artists in there, etc.. but the area i was put into was the business part of it. the lady was the accountant and if i would take it up with them, i'd be doing all this boring accounting-business kinda stuff, which i've never done before (I have no interest in taking up business, to put in this way ;P). hmm. blahblahlbalhlbahl, much deciding, thinking and talking to the woman at school. she gave her reasonings. i accepted them. so i'm there. hmm. it seems like a pretty nice place and a good company. so i'm fine with that, even if i'll be doing boring business/accounting/reception stufff and the most i'll be doing is watching the arts. baha. i'm all fine with that.

hmm. theres this exhibition with real dead humans that have had their exterior torn out and erm. i think its called the amazing human body or something. at first when i saw the adv. on tv i felt it was quite interesting and kind of wanted to go there and learn stuff about the human body but..... gross........   erm.
then i found out (there were about 18 full bodies, and more because some are chopped up and stuff) that they were from china and the fact that nobody knows who they are, where they come from or what they did makes it way fishy. I actually learnt quite a deal when i went with my parents to attend the open forum of illegal organ harvesting (in China) with the international speakers/guests. [the report: (*)]

anyways. llllindaaa is really tired and erm, eh.
nnneeeeedd sleeeepppp. ....
gosh, so much to do. like, piano. much to say, but won't be.

heh.
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*edi
o yeah. almost forgot. ehh. must decide on what subjects to choose for next year (yr 11). musttt choooose wiselyyyyy ... unlike last time. I can only choose 6.
ehhh.. okay erm. English, maths B, umm... i just decided that i would ditch IT (whether its the top/authority/OP subject [hard] or the bottom/cert2 one [easy]), though i'm just wondering if i could skip and erm.. if i could still do cert 3 later on or something. i'm also gonna dooooo... dodedoo.. um, Visual art, i was gonna do technology studies.. but erm. after reading the book... ehhh, i mean it would be cool to be an inventor and all, and i've got so many ideas for them but umm. not sure if i'd have to do graphics? i'm gonnaaa odooo. physics? still pondering on whether i shoulddd do chemistry or not. i should i guess since i ditched computers full stop. eeermm..... eh. geez. i'm gonna put it into shorter wordsskjsadf.:
before i was gonna doooo:
English, Maths B, Visual art, physics (dad said), technology studies and IT cert 2 (well, originally it was information processing and technology, the authority/OP subject, which is pretty hard. then i got talked into the bottom, more easier one with delisha.)

nowww. ..
english & maths b, physicsss, vis.art, umm.. still pondering whether i should do chemistry and whether i should to tech. or if i should do graphics ??

ehhh anywaysss gottapepepfja.

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well, i got a C for my maths test. *just* passed.. but its probably dragged my whole semester 2 results for maths now.. I didn't even tell my parents about the first test we had. its so horrible i just kept quiet. i'm just trying to erm. keep a smile even though i did so bad. its like my first C or something. i do care. i'm just not trying to be toooo obsessed with it or else i'll get hurt more. heeh.
anyways. i haven't finished my history assignment yet. i decided not to go to the technology thingy at tafe this friday because i dont want to miss out on school and it will be too confusing since my history is due on friday.. oh, and we have art. ssooo, i'll just get nancy to tell me what happened :] as much as i'd like to learn about robots, nano-technology and all that jazz. i'm just a bit.. school-less? ehh w/ee.

hmm. not too much talk now. my parents are complaining about my piano teacher. i do realise that she forgets things each week and when shes in a good mood she goes easy and that thats not that good.  umm.. they are stressing me out when they keep rubbing their bishing in and stuff about needing to get me a new teacher thats asian (ha, its sounding ridiculous now but thats the truth). i am calmly, just lightly bitching about hhhhhowww stressful their words can be when they dont think about who i am or umm.. how much i've got to do. What do you want. to change teachers before my exams and put extra stress on me adapting to a new teacher? i dont want a new teacher, to be frank. even if they say that erm.. its crappy. they dont realise that my school is dead poor and crappy, do they? they dont realise who I am and how surroundings can alter one. my mum was talking about one thing. she was actually just bishing. my dad was going on about something totally different. i dont think they noticed that mum and dad were speaking two different species. it sucks how when I am crap, they blame the teacher and all and want to change and dont even realise the stress and arguement build up as a result. can't they just blame me for being crap, lazy and slack anddd whatever? umm.. i'm still calm and smiley.



oook. so we have double theory on friday for PE because our class was naughty today. and one of these upcoming fridays, we'll be going to putput to play putput. i like golf when i can hit the ball. ugh. too much blogging! must do history assignment.

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i come home from school, as its a monday, to parents arguing again. Sometimes I think that living with parents that are always, always shouting at each other and arguing, its just as good as a divorce. i'm sick of hearing their argueing voices and when they release their anger, I start getting cranky (it makes me).

anyways. I've got two more weeks til my history essay is due. I finished my english work folio, which is good but we just got another one today, for those that have finished (it was due last friday anyway, and today i just had 1, or 2 things to do). My maths assignment is stuffed because well, on the part you're supposed to throw the dice 1000 times or get the 100 scores off nine classmates, and some people don't have 100 :/ and so im missing 7 scores to make it a complete 1000, which totally sucks.. so tomorrow when people start FINISHING their assignments (most likely) in the talc room, i'll be starting over that task so my thing isn't screwed, like now.

On saturday we went to surfers in gc, and there was a parade. I don't exactly know why, but I have been feeling down and useless. Let's not get into that. I saw this reeeeally nice erm. house kinda flat kinda.. apartment building thing that you live in and uh, it looked sooo niceee and pretty. Man, I'm starting to develop thoughts for stuff like 'dream car, dream house, etc.' oh well. i guess i'm not that into those yet..

Yesterday was the 3rd queensland fa experience sharing conference, which was in robina, gc again. the morning was soo cold and windy. brr. umm, i was exhausted because I had to get up pretty early and out of my confort zone so we could get there ontime, since dad had to supply the strings for hanging posters, etc. umm. During the thing, it was so hard not to fall asleep. for the first half, felicia and I just sat there. sso tiring, but anyways. finallyyy, we got a break for lunch and we went to that really cool shopping centre there (hah B-D). I ate a bit of my mums chinese takeaway food stuff before lining up pretty long for subway. ehh, its scary ordering subway because its so confusing and stuff :P but 1 time is all it takes. the last time we ordered subway was where they had those machines and it was easy. Anyways. It took so long lining up, that I don't think I was that hungry anymore by the time I got my six inch daily sub. oh well, at least it was only 3.95 andd uhh, yeah. I got the daily one because i don't mind turkey anddd ordering any other way would be confusing and inassuring about prices :P

um. I missed greys anatomy today :/ I thought it was on at 9.30 like all those previous nights. WHattt??!!!? THey changed the time? :( I didnt knowww. and it was the enddd >:l Its usually after desperate housewives, which my brother watches. I can't believe i missed my tv again and he didn't even tell me it ended half an hour ago. if i didnt remember or get reminded i would have missed australian idol too. my brother is so selfish. I know i'm probably sounding really arrogant and snobby right now, but asldkj all he cares about is himself. I asked if he could come and have a look to help with my maths assignment, but he wouldn't. never will. hes never really been a proper brother. but heck, it would probably be tiring being a proper sibling and helping confused and lost linda all the time. okay, i just contradicted myself. whatever.

sla;eljela nothigngg.

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aww i missed tv time on friday =(  [that's where i watch all the things i've taped throughout the week, i.e. greys anatomy 9.30 mondays, house 8.30 wednesdays and erm.. i missed my name is earl on thursday again >.< cause we were shopping and i forgot].

anyways. on Saturdayy, we went to Esk. its this place erm. i dunno. I think its west because thats where the nearest dam is for us. there was this fair and we participated in it. baha, there were these people dressed as medieval kinda people. it felt like I was in runescape, but in real life, hehe. except its daylight and real, not bad graphics like on there :P

this man made these deep fried dough things. we bought one with nothing on and it was nice. normally, he sells them with garlic & water, sour cream & grated cheese.

hmm. lotsa haygrass in my rolled-up jeans. heh, i slept in the car. tiring. on the way back. woke up, was at sunnybank. picked up b'day cake. it looked really pretty.

hmm. went home, then went out, whole family to this erm. sizzling mongolian bbq resturaunt? hehe, it was alright.. like an all you can eat place, but there wasn't much variety. you pick the raw meats you want, the veges, sauces and then the chef takes it and you watch him cook it for about a minute or something.  :P my bowl was the first in line. i kept going back to add stuff because after its cooked it looks really small :P haha, i ended up 3rd, keke.

afterwards it was pretty boring. the same thing. expensive, too. 3 bux for an apple juice and no refill :(  well, anyways. interesting experience. The first time is always the most experimental.

At the moment, Chacity is telling me something freaky thats going on around her. shall i explain?
umm.. actually, its too freaky. it just sounds like she's living The Ring movie or umm.. i dunno. real freaky.

hmm. okk. i have a number of things to do. like that history essay. at least i've made a teeny start.. delishas almost finished. oh well. Remember. I am not going to worry because of somebody elses progress  :)  haha, just myself. and no comparisons. geez. number of things to do..  well, my work placement is going to be at that art gallery. omg. theres a difference between museum & art gallery? the more I think, the more boring it sounds and less hopeful i feel. ahgajhla anyways, i hope its a nice place, at least. o geez.

anyways. i'm done blogging, I guess.

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